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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      F/M, M/M, F/F
  Fandom:
      Shingeki_no_Kyojin_|_Attack_on_Titan, anime_-_Fandom
  Relationship:
      Levi/Eren_Yeager, Armin_Arlert/Erwin_Smith, Marco_Bott_&_Jean_Kirstein,
      Oluo_Bozado/Petra_Ral
  Character:
      Dot_Pixis
  Additional Tags:
      Reincarnations, So_painful_omg_kokoro_cannot, Bits_of_crying_Levi, Full
      of_drama, Depressing, mostly_Levi_being_alone, Levi_loves_Eren_so_much
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      Published: 2013-12-24 Updated: 2013-12-27 Chapters: 3/? Words: 3082
****** Meet You Countless Times, Love You Over and Over Again ******
by Euricca
Summary
     "I will sing this song for you again once everything is over." Levi
     leaned in for another affectionate kiss. "So just you wait." Levi had
     needed to repeat to himself how much he's in love with Eren over and
     over again. No matter how many centuries pass by, my love for you
     will never fade.
Notes
     Hello! This is my first time posting on AO3! Just signed up yesterday
     just to share my wild ideas with you peeps <3 And for the love of
     RivaEre~~>///w///>
     If you can't handle deaths and sad feels, please feel free to click
     the back button on the upper left corner of your browser so you won't
     hurt your precious kokoro QuQ
***** Chapter 1: Our First World *****
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
"Eren!" Levi screamed as if it is the end of the world. He clicked his tongue
at the throbbing pain in his left arm, shoulder and ankle as he flew himself
with the 3D Maneuver gear to Eren.
He landed on the ground where Eren was. Eren was sobbing, staring at the once
green and swishy grasses now pooled with the dark ocean of red. Every place
they would go to was full of corpses. No one was alive; they were the only ones
left alive. He felt like, they were in a dark world where only the two of them
were alive.
"Eren!" Levi tried his best to run as fast as he could and grabbed Eren by his
shoulders, shaking him vigorously. "Eren! What the hell do you think you're
doing!? You knew from the very start that stepping on the ground is a fucking
suicide!" Eren just trembled, shadow-filled eyes still shot open wide, and this
time courage and hope no longer lit in his turquoise eyes. "C-corporal...
They're... Gone." Tears started to well up in his wide eyes, "They're...
Gone..!" It started to rain drops of tears on Eren's cheeks.
"Eren," Levi held Eren in his arms tightly, "I am here. We're alive. I know
this is definitely our last as well, with our comrades, but if you'll give me
the hope again, we'll make it. We can make it."
Levi trembled from the feeling of intense jumbled emotions making his chest
tight. He tried his best to get Eren go back to his senses.
The boy in Levi's arms rubbed his eyes with his bloodied hands with so many
cuts and scratches. "No... It's okay," Eren took Levi's arm and gripped his
hand as he smiled softly, but sadly, while tears fell from his eyes nonstop,
"Look at our bodies. We can barely move them. We're full of wounds. Our uniform
is completely dark red as well as our hair. Everything is black. We're such a
mess." Eren squinted his eyes lightly, sniffing the clog in his nose. "It's
impossible with our body like this. With the far distance back to the wall. I
don't have any gas left. We have no horse. It's too far away. It's just...
Impossible." Eren now sobbed louder. He tightened his grip on Levi's hand.
In an instance, Levi's face dropped and relaxed. He understood and he knew the
situation too well."We didn't give up, nor did we give up on hope, Eren. We
just accepted the reality, the truth. I know." The brown-haired boy nodded
softly, appreciating his superior's understanding. "I won't scold you. I won't
beat your ass up." The shorter man then patted Eren's head in an attempt to
help him soothe down on his breathing.
Eren tried to make words between his hiccups, "I-.. I'm very sorry, sir.."
Levi closed his eyes for a short while and shook his head lightly, then he put
his hands on Eren's cheeks and locked his gaze on Eren's, "Don't apologize. I
know, I know. I guess this is the end of everything, then." Levi smiled softly,
as sadly as Eren did. He started to shed tears as well. "But I don't regret
anything. I am here with you, and you are here with me. By my side." He started
to gently pet his thumb on Eren's cheek. "Dying by your side must be the most
beautiful thing that has to happen in my life, second to the first day of
meeting you." Eren placed his hands on top of Levi's hands, which were on his
cheeks, "Corporal, you are not so yourself today." They both chuckled with a
mix of desperate sobs.
"The same goes for me, Corporal. I have no single regret. And I've always
thought that if I'd die, I want to die by your side or by your hands. So that I
could rest in peace." He started to pet Levi's hands lightly.
"Yeah."
Levi put his hand on the back of Eren's head to pull him for a kiss with the
other hand remaining on Eren's right cheek. As they closed their eyes, they let
the last drops of their tears run down their cheeks. They touched softly as to
re-register each other's built they've always admired of when they make love.
Levi pulled back first and gave Eren a sincere smile,
"I love you, Eren."
The brunette's cheeks heated up. He slightly brought his hand over his mouth
and laughed,
"I love you too, Lance Corporal Levi."
"So fucking much."
"Very very much."
They clasped their hands together. As they leaned in for another passionate
kiss, they entwined their fingers tightly. They had sensed the presence of a
titan in front of them, but they ignored the world; knowing that they already
accepted the truth that it was their end without any regrets left in their
hearts.
They hungrily kissed while warm tears welled up in their eyes again. They let
it draw strokes on their cheeks which were completely blood-stained. Their
bodies were pressed together as tightly as their grip on each other's hands.
Although their emotions, surroundings, air, and everything were very cold,
their chests were warm from their undying love for each other and their
touches.
The titan smiled for finding himself two obedient humans to slaughter. It
raised its leg backwards, and swinged it back forward to throw a big blow on
the two. Blood splattered all over, showering on the red pools of blood,
painting the tree beside them into a red mural.
Chapter End Notes
     I'm very sorry the first chapter is so short! I will post short
     chapters, but frequent updates. TvT
     (I'd also love to receive reviews so I could get better at my writing
     >w> )
     Hope you enjoyed the sadness filled fluff! //gross sobs
     Thank you!~
***** Next Beginning *****
Chapter Summary
     Levi sees hints of miracle, but repeatedly sees himself assuming too
     much... Except one.
Chapter Notes
     Hello guys! So here's the second chapter!
     Please note, this is kinda in Japanese setting. You know the older
     century style in Japan, where citizens were still wearing Kimono as
     their civilian/normal clothings back then? Sliding doors with thin
     woods crossing the whole frame, pretty kimono, and something like
     that ^^;
     (If you still can't get it, recall a Korean drama with princes and
     princesses, like "The Moon that Embraces the Sun" gdi my all time
     favorite 8'D)
     I really do advice you to search a little bit about the theme
     (houses, how the cities look like, attires, etc.) before reading, so
     you could get your imagination work the scenes on your head so you
     could enjoy reading! OwO
     Enjoy!~
See the end of the chapter for more notes
Levi rubbed his eyes with the back of his hand. He groaned, and rolled in his
futon*. After gazing into nothing for more than 6 minutes, he finally decided
to get out of bed. He stretched, and proceeded to the kitchen for breakfast.
Pixis was there, already setting the table. "Oh, Levi! You're up early as
usual! Come, let's have breakfast." Levi nodded once, sitting slowly on the
thin cushion laid on the tatami*.
Ever since he was a child, Pixis was the one who acted as his father. When he
reached 21, he started having heavy flashbacks in his head. And not so long
after, he knew who he was before. He was the lance corporal of Survey Corps. He
spent his years fighting and killing titans, sacrificing everything to
accomplish missions which always ended up failing, watching his comrades and
other people die. He was alone all the time since no one really understood him.
He had his squad, dear and respectable; but he still couldn't seem to be able
to open up with them no matter how precious and close they were to him -until
he met this boy named Eren Jaeger. He was special and different from the
others, and he never knew the real reason why he felt so attached to the boy
ever since he saw the boy's face up close at the court. He liked the
determination in his eyes, how his voice sounds in his ears, how the texture of
his hair brushed smoothly on his fingers, how smooth and feminine his skin was
and his body's softness, how much he wanted to fucking annihilate the filthy
titans, how he endured all the pain and sufferings of his whole life, and
everything - until time flew by and he completely fell in love for the boy. It
was the most intense love he has ever felt.
But everyone who existed before didn't remember a thing about their past. He
was the only one to remember everything: like once when he first met Hanji (on
the day Pixis picked him up and took him home), he hurled his hands on Hanji's
shoulders as he yelled at her, asking where Eren was. But Hanji just stared
wide-eyed at Levi for a second then laughed her ass off while asking how did he
know her name. Hanji had told him that she had acquainted with the boy with the
same name before, but remembered that they had moved to another house. For
being such a cute boy, his protective father restricted him from coming out of
the house.
It's almost a decade now that he had dreams of Eren every single night. He
gritted his teeth, as he felt a shot of ache in his chest. I want to see Eren.
I want to hold him. I will protect him, definitely this time. I will make him
happy, now that there are no titans anymore. Eren. Eren. These thoughts
overflows in his head everyday, almost making him crazy; he really badly wanted
to see Eren again. He's been searching for him all these years full of
darkness. I want to get him back. With or without memories of the past, I don't
care. I will still love him. He will eventually love me back. We can start
again. I want him. I miss him.
I love him.
"Levi!" He finally snapped out of his deep thoughts. He looked at his father.
"Are you okay, son? You looked pained and twisted. Is something wrong?" Pixis
put a hand on Levi's shoulder.
"Leviii~ You okay? You looked like you were pooping out a titan out of your
butt," said Hanji as she commented with a ridiculous grin.
Levi instantly turned his head to Hanji, painfully cracking his neck at the
sudden turning speed, "The fuck did you just say..?"
"Eh..."
"Do you... Remember everything now..!?"
Hanji sweated, "A-ah nope, eeeeh why did that come up on my mind? What did I
just say?" The brunette started to panic around with her thumb and index finger
massaging her chin.
The black haired man took it as a no. Hanji is not good at lying- she always
burst out laughing when she tries to lie. But Hanji was grabbing her head like
crazy, crying out what the fuck did she say and blahs with a humiliated face.
Levi slowly straightened and lowered his head, furrowing his eyebrows and
heaved a heavy sigh. "That's enough moron."
Hanji slowly landed her eyes on the man, hands still clenched tightly on her
head, "B-but you see... It's so familiar that no matter how I dig my brain I
couldn't remember..! Oh my god, I'm suddenly feeling so hot...!" Levi just
watched Hanji hyperventilate and vigorously rub her hands all over her body.
He believed - well at least he wanted to- that it was a sign of Hanji slowly
gaining back the memories of the past.
As he clenched his teeth with a click of his tongue, he shot up and waved his
right hand in a shooing motion as he turned his heels and left, opening the
doors, "I'm going out for a bit."
Before Hanji could even reply with a 'yeah, take care', the door shut with a
large bang before her.
Levi was walking down the streets, as his usual/daily routine. He kept his head
and eyes restless from peeking on every corners and angles. He did it everyday
for so many hours until night for almost a decade now. Levi had strong hope and
was well determined. If Pixis, Hanji, Erwin, Petra, Auruo, Erd and Gunther were
here, Eren is definitely not so far away as well, he swore.
He continued to walk and walk, until he passed by one block. He heard loud
voices but it didn't seem like a fight. It jerked his attention, so he tried to
walk closer to take a peek at what the ruckus was about.
"Your child is truly such a cutie, Mr. Jaeger!" The man with a soft, pleasantly
bright smile clapped his hand together as he complimented an obviously blushing
teenager.
"Thank you very much," the man with shoulder length hair smiled back at the old
man,"he really is, and I'm very proud of him. Being a beauty, he is forced to
be raised a girl, though, for the sake of culture." The man standing beside the
boy ruffled his hair.
The figure was painfully familiar, fucking painfully familiar. His eyes slowly
began to burn, tears forming inside but he didn't let himself make anymore
tears so it didn't fall to his cheeks. He stiffened, but he struggled as he ran
to the lad.
He desperately caught up to the miraculous figure. His raggy breaths were
swooshing away every atom in the air, his eyes teary and widened, for he
couldn't believe his eyes. He took great leaps and he ran. Levi had to admit,
his face was the most desperate shit ever that if Hanji would have ever seen
his face like that, she would laugh her filthy ass off for 12 fucking hours
straight for sure.
I'm getting close... Just a little bit more... I will reach him... Please, wait
for me..!
Levi grabbed the lad's forearm hard and the people around the shop- especially
the kid himself- jolted at the surprise. The boy had slowly, fearfully turned
his head to the man behind him who clutched at his hand tightly
"W-who--"
Chapter End Notes
     Aaaaargh I'm so sorry I couldn't make them any longer! I suck (very
     much) at writing long chapters, so please, bear with my short
     chapters and forgive me. Onegai~~! Q^Q *pleading puppy eyes*
     Thank you for sticking guys! I'm quite sure there were people who
     backed out because of the horrible happening in my FIRST chapter
     (what a terrible way to start a story lmao) but I am greatful to
     everyone who had clicked!
***** Interaction *****
Chapter Summary
     More of emotional and out of character Levi QuQ
"Eren...!?"
The black-haired man clang to the young man in front of him, no intentions of
letting go. Levi hyperventilated for lack of air, inhaling oxygen as hard as he
could and breathing out heavy rough breaths repeatedly.
The said boy, Eren, shot his eyes up wide. It surprised him to atomic bombs -
the man just grabbed him with full force and screamed his name like he's
calling the gods because there were no toilet papers left.
They stared at each other for a whole minute, checking their body features
carefully. Surprisingly, Eren wasn't disgusted of the sudden physical contact
with a complete stranger at all, especially with this grumpy looking man, but
instead, he burned from his touch. He normally jolts away when someone tries to
touch him.
The other pale man, however, was very glad to see his treasure again.
His life,
His freedom,
His love.
One glance at his huge and brilliant green-blue orbs proved it. He was really
his long awaited former partner, Eren Jaeger. Finally. Finally, Eren.
Eren parted his lips open to speak, "U-uhmm.. Who... Might you be..?"
Levi, who was still left stiff and tensed, finally came back down on earth. He
loosened his grip on Eren's forearm as he slowly retreated, composing himself.
Who am I...?
It hurt. Eren didn't remember him - as what he was expecting. Pixis, Hanji,
Erwin and others doesn't even remember a single thing about their past so he
assumed that there's a huge possibility that Eren is the same as them. He
believed that he was long ago ready for it because he knew and expected it, but
perhaps he was wrong the whole time. Levi couldn't help but to let a sting
shoot straight to his chest, no matter how ready he was or not, as those words
slipped past those lovely, small lips of Eren himself.
When Levi was about to speak, Eren's father interrupted. "Who is it, Eren?"
The two quickly turned his way. Levi tensed more; he was afraid that Eren's dad
might not like him for the first impression he made and might not like the idea
of him befriending Eren. He would take anything but that.
"U-uhm dad, he's an acquaintance of mine. It was too sudden so I didn't
recognize him immediately. I'm also really bad at remembering acquaintances'
names." Eren scratched the back of his head with a sheepish smile, acting
natural. He himself wondered why he attempted to protect the man in front of
him, but he felt a small nostalgic happiness surging within him so he thought
that what he did was not wrong.
The shorter man is as sharp as he always had been. He knew better than lose
Eren in one wrong step. "It's wonderful to see you again, Eren," the Levi then
turned to face Grisha, "And it's nice to meet you, sir. I'm Levi."
Grisha smiled to the said man greeting him, "It's really nice to know you too,
Levi."
The bright-eyed boy smiled and nodded, a smooth warm pink flushing on his mid-
tan skin. Eren's father grinned, and tapped the two's shoulders, "Alright kids,
time to go back for snack!" Levi let out a low growl at how the old man called
him a kid while Eren's eyes shone brighter than festival lights and fireworks.
The black-haired man's expression loosened as he stared at the lad's
captivating smile, and continued to walk on after a few seconds with a smirk
curving the corners of his lips.
He hasn't changed at all.
The three walked around the lively city filled with laughters and colorful
lights for hours, talking about anything they could talk about. This was the
first time in his second lifetime that Levi ever smiled - publicly - in front
of anyone else other than Eren. It wasn't that bad anyway. Ever since Eren has
taught him how it is to smile, he learned that the reflex of curving the lips
is actually quite fun.
Worked up by his own thoughts he came back on Earth and realized that the
bright blue sky which seemed like just a millisecond ago was now pitch black
with tiny little sparkles. tThis happy 'family time' was going to end very
soon.
The dark-haired man frowned- obviously unhappy, as he noticed the time.
"Father, I think it's time to dismiss myself for today. It is already late."
Levi took a step forward, turned on his heel and bowed in courtesy in front of
the two.
Grisha, pleased with Levi's clean manners, smiled. "Oh, I didn't notice it was
this late already," he put his hand on Levi's shoulder, "I can't wait to hang
out with you again. Where do you live?"
The shorter male straightened up. "I live in the next block, but I am around
here everyday."
"I see, I see. See you around here then?" Grisha waved his hand.
Eren blushed slightly as he stumbled upon his own words. "U-uhm.. See you..
Levi..?" The lad blushed more when he let out the ravenette's name.
This stuck Levi's heart. He. Said. His. Name.
So fucking adorable.
Levi couldn't help but let the natural reflex lift up the corners of his lips
and he nodded at the two. "Yeah, see you too, Eren."
"Take care!" Grisha pat his son's back as he led him to the direction of their
house. Levi watched them walk away for a moment, and started down the way to
his home as well.
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